Life Update

"Love. Healing. Help. Hope. The power of Christ to counter all troubles in all times—including the end of times. That is the safe harbor God wants for us in personal or public days of despair. That is the message with which the Book of Mormon begins, and that is the message with which it ends, calling all to 'come unto Christ, and be perfected in him' (Moroni 10:32)."

Jeffrey R. Holland, "Safety for the Soul," Ensign, Nov. 2009, 88

This past Summer i signed up to receive daily emails from the church. Sometimes they are just ones i keep because i am sure to have future use for them. Others seem to come at the time i need them most. Today i Received one that was the later.

Ive been feeling really hopeless lately.
For those who did not know, i was engaged. It wasn't a hasty decision. Yes i had him ask my dad. Yes i prayed about it, and yes I received the answer.

I not only love this boy, but i am helplessly, head-over-heels, in love with him. After two years he still gives me butterflies.

However, two-months ago things went from bliss to non-existent within the time of a week.

This has thrown me out of wack and i cant seem to find my way out. There are a lot of complications that have come with this devastation, and some really scare me. I have felt lost in life, in spirit, in Everything.

There is a good point to this, besides that this is a journal and i'm updating it.

These emails arrive when i need them most with words of comfort and hope. I advise each of you access the LDS.org site and sign up for these emails. They have them for every kind of person, and any stage of life.

With them i am reminded that Heavenly father loves me and in not always grand, but subtle ways, he shows me so.