Proud of Myself

I'm making progress, well on the good days that is.

Message to him...

"Thank you for leaving me. You reminded me that I can get back up when i'm thrown on my butt. I can do this without you and as time goes on I will heal, and i'll find someone who truelly loves me for me and wants nothing less. I deserve that. I deserve the love you find in story books. I wanted so badly for you to be my knight in shining armor, but you let me get eaten by the dragon. You didn't come to my rescue. One day i'll get my fairytale ending, even if it means I have to let you go."

I'm writing a book

I've just started writing a book. One that tells stories of my experience as gained through my life.

I'm not sure if it will ever be published. but the aim is to let the many girls and people out there that they are not alone and that others have been through many things they themselves have as well.

Periodically i may post bits and pieces of my book. i ask that those who comment are kind and understanding. that they are open to my words and my story. I do however welcome consructive criticism.

Here's a sneak peak.

Story.Of.My.Life

The ups and downs of growing up Rebekah.

For my sisters both blood related and love related, and for all girls stumbling and fighting their way through life in their journey to find themselves.

"Accept.

your faults

your differences

your similarities

you are human

you can not be perfect

there is nothing we can do to change the past, but everything to change the future

you are unique

you are beautiful

You are the one and only lovely you"

Life Update

"Love. Healing. Help. Hope. The power of Christ to counter all troubles in all times—including the end of times. That is the safe harbor God wants for us in personal or public days of despair. That is the message with which the Book of Mormon begins, and that is the message with which it ends, calling all to 'come unto Christ, and be perfected in him' (Moroni 10:32)."

Jeffrey R. Holland, "Safety for the Soul," Ensign, Nov. 2009, 88

This past Summer i signed up to receive daily emails from the church. Sometimes they are just ones i keep because i am sure to have future use for them. Others seem to come at the time i need them most. Today i Received one that was the later.

Ive been feeling really hopeless lately.
For those who did not know, i was engaged. It wasn't a hasty decision. Yes i had him ask my dad. Yes i prayed about it, and yes I received the answer.

I not only love this boy, but i am helplessly, head-over-heels, in love with him. After two years he still gives me butterflies.

However, two-months ago things went from bliss to non-existent within the time of a week.

This has thrown me out of wack and i cant seem to find my way out. There are a lot of complications that have come with this devastation, and some really scare me. I have felt lost in life, in spirit, in Everything.

There is a good point to this, besides that this is a journal and i'm updating it.

These emails arrive when i need them most with words of comfort and hope. I advise each of you access the LDS.org site and sign up for these emails. They have them for every kind of person, and any stage of life.

With them i am reminded that Heavenly father loves me and in not always grand, but subtle ways, he shows me so.